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Not having a good time.

I seem to be in the grip of an MS flare up. It's like my brain isn't my own. I feel drained, snappy, dizzy and seriously down. Not good. Hope I pull out of this one quickly. I have things to do. Things that require a working brain. I'm feeling particularly sorry for myself. #sulk#.
At least Wales beat France at the rugby today. Gotta grab onto the little things.
I want my brain back.

I must stop being a creepy lurker.

Seriously. I mean it. I've been in LJ for a while now but I haven't really done anything other than hang in the shadows chilling. I can't really call it a new years resolution because I'm a month late. Still. I resolve to be more proactive with my life.
I always seem to be drowning in something. Computer problems (RIP old friend), work dramas, university rubbish, yadda, yadda, yadda.
I swear I used to be more interesting.
Now, I seem to be constantly struggling to keep my head above water.
I have no idea what made me think doing an acute mental health Bsc would be a good idea. Working full time in mental health is bad enough. Never mind spending your spare time writing essays about it.
That's why I'm still awake at nearly 2am. Just finished a 4000 word assignment.
Tomorrow is my day off though. I fully intend on typing up some of the smallfandombang story that was due today. Call me old school but I write long hand with a pen and paper. It feels better. Typing is so impersonal.
I also wanna write some of the WilSon ideas that have been eating my brain down.
Sorry for the today jibber. I don't really do grammar or sense at this time.



Stolen from melodious329
"SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 85 films, you have no life (well, obviously I don't have a life, lol). Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, post to your LJ/DW and paste this as a note. Then, put +'s next to the films you've seen, add them up, and use your number as the header"

Rocky Horror Picture Show
(+) Grease
(+) Pirates of the Caribbean
(+) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
( ) Boondock Saints
(+) Fight Club
(+) Starsky and Hutch
(+) Neverending Story
() Blazing Saddles
(+) Airplane
Total: 7
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Another question thingy.

Meme from jesco0307

• Comment with "come at me, bro" (or "I want to play" or anything similar)
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

These are the five questions jesco0307 asked me:

1. What animal would you be?
Technically they're fictional - but I'd love to be a dragon.
2. If you're house was on fire, which two things (people and animals are safe already) would you rescue?
Hmm. That is a really, really, really, tough question. My brother is one of those people who can live out of a suitcase and doesn't care much about possessions. He spends months a year travelling the globe and generally being a "free spirit" type. I am completely not like that. My home is my universe and I love it hear. I'm a hoarder and I love having my belongings around me. When it comes to saving things, I wouldn't be bothered about valuables like jewelry. I'd want to save things like the photo of my granda and grandma that was taken in their garden not long before they died. Also (and slightly more difficult) I'd like to rescue the huge shelving units that my Granda made in the 60s or 70s. I rescued 2 of them from my grandma's house just after she died. My mum had made the mistake of giving house keys to the people who were going to buy it. We went in one day to sort out the last of grandma's things and the evil buggers had taken a sledge hammer to the largest one of the units and smashed it to pieces because they wanted "the rubbish cleared." Massive sentimental value.
3. What is your morning routine?
Haha. Depends on what shift I'm on. If I'm working and early then I have 3 alarms to wake me up. I tend to press snooze unit about 5 mins before I set off. I crawl out of bed, wash, dress and run a brush through my hair and then run out the door. I'm I'm on a late shift then I sleep until 9, watch a bit of morning telly, perhaps tidy the house and chill until I need to set off to work at 12.30.
4. Do you speak any foreign languages?
Nope. I know the french for "the referree's a wanker" and I know tiny tiny bits of Welsh. The 5 years of German I did at school taught me very little.
5. If you could choose, what country (other than yours) would you like to have been born in and why?
This is and easy one. Although I live and work in Wales, and have been here most of my life, I was actually born in England. Eek. I feel shame. Please don't tell anybody I'm not really welsh. I want to keep it amongst friends ;o)


Hmm. 5 questions.

Meme from melodious329

• Comment with "come at me, bro" (or "I want to play" or anything similar)
• I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.
• Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
• Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

These are the five questions melodious329 asked me:

1. What would you do if you didn't have to work?
I'm not one of these who lives for my job. It actually does my head in most of the time. So, if I didn't have to work (like some lottery winner or something) I wouldn't keep it up for the sake of helping people. I'd like to say that I be all creative and write a novel. The sad fact is that I'm not sure that's true. I'd try to write a novel and spend a lot of time procrastinating and deleting page after page of drivel. I'd also like to go back to university and study for my English literature Masters and maybe PHd. I wouldn't have a massively exciting life. I wouldn't travel the world or anything adventurous like that. I'd be quite boring but happy.
2. When you were a child, what did you want to be when you grew up and did you stick to that goal?
I wanted to be a singer. I think. I don't really remember. I know I definitely didn't want to be a nurse. In fact, I swore I'd never be a nurse. This means that something clearly went wrong and I didn't follow my ambitions.
3. What five things can put you in a good mood?
A good Movie.
A good book.
Cardiff Bay.
4. If you were stranded on a deserted island, what two material things would you bring with you and what three people would you bring?
I'd take a fully decked out camping kit. Complete with tent, stove, matches, solar powered electric, wardrobe etc (and yes, I am cheaky enough to class that as one thing). I'd also take a billion gig ipod that's fully loaded with all my music, books and movies.
5. What color crayon would you be?